A Broken Girl

lately, so many things happened, it hurts me alot & im not strong enough to face it. i was so disheartened by whats happening in my life right now. ya Allah, why he changed? i miss the old him, i really miss the old him. i dont know what to do anymore. everything is falling apart. im very scared if one day he will cheats on me, he loves another girl, he cares about another girl maybe for sure he will hates me too, and push me away. i dont know what i will do if i lose him. ya Allah, it hurts. im very tired with teary eyes almost every night. ya Allah, please give me some strength, i know this ur plan and i know u will help me through it together, im not strong, im weak, my body weak, everything in me is weak right now. but if one day he doesnt love me anymore, he has someone else, i hope he will be more happier with her more than with me, even its hard to see him with other but what can i do, i love him, i love him so much and i will do anything just to make sure he's happy. sayang i will never stop praying for ur happiness, for ur health, for ur success, for ur future, for everything. if i die first, i want u to find a girl that will love u no matter what, that will keep fighting for u, that will always take care and be there for u. that will never make u cry and sad, just please dont find a girl like me, im a bad girl. i always mad at u over the stupid things and get jealous with u. i dont know i love u so much until i cant control my own jealousy against u. im sorry but this me, a broken girl -put :)